what a wonderful age we're in

i was awakened this morning at 4am by acacia's voice

"Smile, You've Got Mail!"

-that's the sound my phone makes when i get a text

and (praise god) there was the message

'morning'

-from a medically induced coma to a text on a cell phone

ain't life great?

we text ed back and forth

she said she felt fine, but can't handle the feeding tube

i told her 'ya gotta eat'

i asked if she's getting skinny, she said 'yeahhh'

ya see, like her father (and his cars)

-she's always had trouble with a spare tire


so, (for this morning) 'she's wide awake'

i told her i loved her

and she did the same

-that's all i need


the wheel goes round and round

and (for right now anyway) we're at the top!

a li'l better

nothing's really different

i just called and everything's the same

other than her stomach feels a li'l better

and she's 'not so sedated' -yet comfortable


they still don't know what's going on with her

the nurse said they are just waiting to see if

the new lungs kick-in and start working by themselves


that sounds to me like it's time for more prayers

'resting comfortably'

i think when they don't wanna talk to me

or they don't know what's going on

they tell me that she's 'resting comfortably'

this nurse this morning had no idea how to answer

my questions about acacia

she just keep saying 'i don't know'

and 'she's resting comfortably'

what they've done, (i'm fearing)

is just knock her out again

last night she was in distress and 'comfortable'

they don't know why she's having so many different problems


just

'her numbers are normal and she's resting comfortably'


i guess i should be thankful for that

i keep reminding myself -she's out of my hands

-she's in god almighty's hands

i'm really thankful for that


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I will lift up my eyes to the mountains; from whence shall my help come?
My help comes from the Lord who made heaven and earth.
He will not allow [her] foot to slip;
He who keeps [her] will not slumber.
Behold, He who keeps [Acacia] will neither slumber or sleep.

rough time

she's anxious and her blood pressure is up

she's sick to her stomach and weak

she's not resting and uncomfortable

the nurse couldn't tell me too much more

because she had to go take care of her

she's having a very rough time of it

and they still don't know what exactly is happening


please keep her in your prayers

ask god to go a little easier on her

'headed in the right direction'

that's how her nurse described her this morning

off sedation, gonna have her sit up in her chair

lowered her oxygen machine to '30'

he did say however that now there's some problem

with her digestive tract, but he wasn't concerned

-'we'll give her something to take care of that'

he said she's headed in the right direction


editor's note:

this is my 50th posting and after this much contact with these various nurses
i think i've come to the conclusion that you really never know what's happening

they are not gonna alarm me or admit that they've done anything wrong
or that their patient is in any pain or distress or danger

but me not being there and all i have to report is what they report to me

-that's how we get back to the question of 'how do we cope?'

we cope with hope

these things are obviously out of our hands
so we have to rely on somebody else to handle things
she's in good hands
and me, for one, i have hope

slight improvement

is better than none

they hope to take the breathing tube

out of her mouth and throat

and replace the 'trach' tube

i like that, i hate that tube in her mouth

her numbers are still fine and she's still sedated

'slightly'

she's 'comfortable' and 'holding her own'


the biopsy showed "NO REJECTION" -that's great!

there is still air around her heart

but it's not effecting her heart function

and it 'may' have started to dissipate


overall: 'slight improvement'

in a long long road to recovery